That’s it, it’s official. We’re forever gone.
I’m sitting here staring, feeling like I don’t belong.
All meaning of family and love I now question
But maybe now it’s time to give up this obsession.
I saw you him and it hurts to admit
That you seem happy, but it’s stings quite a bit
Cause I am not the one next to you, by your side
But for them two I will just swallow my pride.
He seems fun and they like him, but he’s not their father
And the thought of him of being that, just makes me stagger
Cause it was always supposed to it being just me
But maybe now it’s time to let that idea be free.
A family and love. Us four. All that I wanted.
An ideal that forever will leave me haunted…
I never had that and now they won’t either
I am sorry, I’m stepping out… I just need a breather.
She is lovely and kind. She’s been helping a lot.
Never leaves. Always there, even when I am not.
But it’s so hard to even tell her how I feel
But maybe now it’s time to let myself heal…
You should see her with them. She is funny and silly.
And she could love them millions, I know that, really…
And they like her and want to spend more time with her
But I am so scared of it all and I always deter.
She is not you and I am not him.
The light of us now went suddenly dim.
I am sad and I am mad and I want to flee.
Will I forever just sit, dwell on what used to be?
I will be fine. It’s a shock. It’s a jolt to the core.
I guess reality crashing down and leaving me sore.
It will take me some time to admit and accept
That the promise we made, we’ll just leave it unkept.
I have them two and that’s all that matters.
They keep me together, even when everything shatters.
I will always think of this dream unfulfilled
But maybe now it’s time to start and rebuild.